New Beginnings

Well, I have decided since I am having a fresh start in just about every aspect of my life, or will be within the next few months, I am going to have a fresh start to the blog as well. I know this is coming a couple weeks after my new beginnings began, but I needed time to think on what I would say, I've thought and I am ready. I am excited for the new start to my life and everything that comes with it.

Now, for some explaining. As you know I was engaged, I broke it off, not because he was a bad person, or anything like that, but because he wasn't the right guy for me. After a lot of time thinking and talking about it I knew for a fact what I wanted and what was best for me. I really am 100% certain I made the right decision for me and am incredibly happy now. There was someone else who had been on my mind for years, yeah, literally years. And I knew deep down what I wanted and what I needed to do. So I did it.

I know a lot of people don't agree with, or don't understand my decision. But considering the circumstances I have taken the "I don't care" attitude. Does it still bug me if people I am close to or thought I was close to think less of me because of my decisions? Yes, but I can't let them bring me down. I know I did the right thing and I just hope everyone else can understand and respect that.

I have also decided that I will not be staying in Kalamazoo past July, I am hoping to get out of my lease in April when I graduate (WOOHOO!!). I have a house in Gaylord that my parents offered me, but I am currently trying to decide if I want to live there or just move in with my parents for a bit and see how that goes. I guess I will leave it up to the job situation. Also I will be starting my Master's degree in May. It will be through Western, but it's an online program.

I am really just looking forward to life. I am happier than I could have thought I would be and I wouldn't change anything for the world. Well, maybe make Kalamazoo to Cheboygan not so long of a drive. I have driven it three weekends in a row (almost 30 hours in 14 days, craziness). But it has totally been worth it and I don't regret that for a second. Being with Ben is amazing, and really surreal. I still overanalyze, because that's what I do, but I never doubt my decision or my feelings.

Well I just got in for the night and finished this and I think it's time for me to head to bed! After all I have another at least 4.5 hour drive tomorrow!!
♥ Sara

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be."
- Douglas Adams