New.

So, you are just going to have to bear with me through this summer. My blogging will not be very regular and I might not have a whole lot to say. Some things have happened since the last time I blogged though. . . .

1. I switched hotels, again. I now work at the Aqua Grand. (If you are coming to Mackinaw City and need a room, I know where you can get one!! :) ) And I'm staying at this one until it closes. There was a weekend about three weeks ago when I was supposed to be going to Kalamazoo for Krissi's birthday party. I had been planning on it since I started working, everyone was aware that I wouldn't be around. . . that is until one of the managers of the hotel I am working at now disappeared and the other was on vacation. So, I ended up giving up my trip to Kalamazoo and working there for the weekend. I decided to stay there after the weekend was over (of course after ok-ing it with other people). Since that weekend, I have been working a minimum of 70 hours a week. I get two more days off this summer. One is for my family reunion, which it is essential that I am at since I'm in charge of the damn thing. When I signed up for it I had no idea I would have a job where I'm working 7 days a week, a minimum of 8 hours a day. And the other is just before the the other desk clerk leaves for the season and I start working all day every day (as opposed to all day half of the week and half days the other half).

2. I'm living in Mackinaw. With how many hours I have been working I need to stay here to remain half way sane and successfully get a good night's rest. I live in an apartment behind the lobby of the hotel I work at. When the other manager quit, he left an open room behind, so I moved into it. I live with three guys (one of them being my manager, the other two manage other businesses as well). It's interesting, that's for sure. And since I am the only one who cooks and cleans (because I make time for it) I have acquired the nickname "mom." I like it up here and I'm pretty much married to my job for now. It won't be like this forever, and maybe that's the main reason I don't mind it so much. Only a couple more months and the hotels will be closing up and my hours will be cut way back. Right now I attempt to make it home at least one night a week and my parents do come visit me once in a while.

3. I GOT A CAR!! I bought a 2009 Ford Focus. I will be adding pictures eventually, I'll be sure to take some. :) I am so excited. I was able to get it financed on my own and had plenty to use as a down payment. I don't know if you understand how much that means to me. I went from not having a job to not only have a job, but being able to finance a car on my own and owning my own car with no help from mom and dad. I love being independent and this is just one more way I could do so.

4. I got a new camera. My other new camera had an accident at the all night diner. (She was dropped when drunk people were looking at pictures.) Luckily, I had the amazing warranty plan and they accepted it as a return right away.

5. I had yet another biopsy done. As you may know, I have Barrett's Esophagus, which is a pre-cancer of the esophagus. I have had it for three and a half years that I know of and I have to get a biopsy done every three years. This one came back the same as always. I still have Barrett's but it hasn't progressed any further so my doctor told me to not worry about it and we will do another biopsy in three years. At least this one was "normal" for me, unlike the last two, and Istill need to get my other mole removed. *makes note to self* (Maybe in October!!!)

I think that's about it. My life right now consists mainly of work and of very little else. The rumors about me haven't stopped. I don't know that they will. And I don't really understand why there is such a draw to me. But, whatever. The people I care most about know the truth, and that's all that matters.

To my friends, I'm sorry I have fallen off the face of the earth. I will see you all in the fall! :) ♥

Song of the Day:

Sideways by Dierks Bentley

[I love this song. It's one of the ones that comes on the radio and I crank it up. Unfortunately there is no "worked all week" it's more like "worked all summer." :) ]

♥ Sara

"Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did." -Newt Gingrich

Rumors. . .

Hi, my name is Sara and I love it when rumors are spread about me!

*NOT!*

Actually, most of the time I simply don't mind I let it roll off my back and continue on with my life, but when rumors about me screw up relationships (whether they are friendships or something more than friendships) then I am furious. Recently there have been two types of rumors spread about me and these rumors have affected friendships.

The first is the type of rumor that has some truth to it, but in which assumptions are made and accusations are laid out that change something innocent into something not so innocent. The second type is one that is 100% false and has no reality to it. Now, the first one isn't a huge deal if questions are asked and explanations are allowed. The second, on the other hand, is. I don't know, there is just something about making a story up that is entirely false that makes you a complete scumbag. Period. End of story. Yes, you, Sir Rumor Spreader, are a scumbag.

Now, what is even worse than that is when said rumors can also affect someone else's life and relationships. In this case, if the rumors were to go beyond the handful of people that currently know, that could happen. I hope for the sake of the rumor starters and for the sake of the other people being talked about that it doesn't happen. Unfortunately, there are no guarantees.

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This was written on the date shown for posting. Now, two days later, I have had more time to think and have come to a few realizations.

1. The rumor starter/spreader is in fact a scumbag. I am counting on karma to get him on this one. . . . for now. That is until I come up with a better solution. And if you know me, you know I will. No, no talking to other people will be done. I will deal with this head on . . . isn't that how I always handle my problems?

2. If you don't trust me enough to believe my side of the story, well I don't need you in my life anyhow, especially if there is no concrete evidence to the story you were told. I try damn hard not to lie and not to do things that would put me in a sticky situation. So if someone were to ask me straight up if I did something I would tell them. They might not like the answer, but I would give it to them anyhow.

3. I don't miss the person that I had written this about initially, but I am still pissed that these rumors are still being discussed, and I know they are. I guess one way to look at it is: if they are talking about me they are leaving someone who can't handle it alone.

Well, I think that is all I have to say about this for now, and I know I have other blogs waiting to be finished and posted so I will be doing that soon!

Song of the Day:

Rumors by Lindsay Lohan

[I had no clue she sang this song. . . but I thought it was fitting for the blog. That's all I really have to say about it. :) ]

♥ Sara

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them." -Marilyn Monroe

It's Wedding Season. . .

As most of you already know, I was engaged two years ago. (Wow, it's been two years.) And as I'm sure you have also recognized, it's wedding season! *sigh* Wedding season always gives me mixed feelings, has for years. Half of me dreams of getting married and having kids one day, yet I doubt that will ever happen. I'm not a pessimistic person in general, just when it comes to relationships and other people. Maybe it's because I've been let down, or maybe it's because if I don't have high expectations it's harder to be disappointed.

As a Weddingbook moderator (It's an application on facebook that has forums for couples planning their weddings. I became a mod two months after I got engaged and haven't stepped down yet, mind you, I called off the wedding a year and a half ago! I've considered quitting numerous times but I do love it there and I don't mind being the "single moderator.") I am constantly aware of wedding stuff. At times, it gets to me that I may never find that person, that I may never have that, but for the most part I just enjoy hearing about, helping and seeing happy couples (even if I get twinges of jealousy from time to time) and I LOVE seeing the photos of their big days.

Back to the purpose of this blog. I recently came across a blog entitled "My Ex-Wife's Wedding Dress." I am hooked. This guy recently got divorced and his ex wife left her wedding dress behind for him to do what he wished with it. Well his goal is to come up with 101 uses for a wedding dress. It is great. And in it he writes about what it's like going through the divorce, it's very interesting.

Prior to finding this blog I had been thinking about what I could do with my dress. It's gorgeous, but even if I ever do get married I don't see myself wearing it because it's "tainted." I don't know, it would be weird to get married in a dress that I bought for a wedding that never happened, ya know? Anyhow, I know I could try to sell it, but I don't know how likely it is that it would actually sell. It has been hanging in a closet for two years just waiting to be used for something. So I had tried thinking of a fun "project" I could use it for. I mean I would have to buy it off my parents first, or promise to buy my real wedding dress (if I ever have one) myself.

So here is what I have come up with, whether I go through with it or not, only time will tell. I won't be starting it until the end of summer at the earliest. . . I am considering doing a photo project entitled "52 Places To Wear A Wedding Dress" or "52 Things To Do While Wearing A Wedding Dress." Why 52 you ask? Well, I wouldn't want to do more than one a week. But one a week does seem like a do-able option. This project would have to include someone else, not always the same someone else, but I wouldn't be able to take the pictures myself and get the full effect. Plus, I figure wearing a wedding dress 52 different days in a year is going to get far more out of it than had I wore it the one day I was supposed to. Plus I think it could be one hell of a fun project. So I have started a list. Any additions to said list that you can think of can be messaged to me on facebook, commented here or emailed to me directly. :)

And since every post has pictures. . . here are the ones for this blog. . . me in the dress.

Song of the Day:

So What by Pink

[If you know my taste in music you would know that Pink is one of my favorite artists. I don't know, there's just something about a good-looking, badass, true to herself artist. Plus I tend to relate to some of her songs. And I LOVE this one. Once again, not directed at anyone in particular, but rather a whole group of people. :) ]

♥ Sara

“Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free till they find someone just as wild to run with them.” -Sex in the City

(Ya know, I keep finding these quotes so I'm thinking I should probably actually watch an episode or two. lol.)