2.16.2009

Crazy

Wow, my life has been crazy!! So many changes are going on.

I am working on my overanalyzing problem (which I think comes from the OCD). It's getting on my nerves and I know it's unneccesary and I know a lot of the things I overanalyze and freakout about are just plain ridiculous. I've been trying to stop overanalyzing every single thing in my life for years, and it never worked in the past...but I figure if I can not have a plan and be happy, I can not overanalyze and most likely be even happier! I'm actually doing better with it than I expected. Crazy, I know! (But the rest of my life is even more organized, haha....oh well a clean house is never a bad thing...)

I never thought that I would be willingly moving back into my parents house, let alone be looking forward to it! I have made the over 550 mile round-trip journey from Kalamazoo to my parents house and back every weekend. Well, not every weekend because I spent all of last week up there. I had to get away from here and be around people who supported me and weren't going to treat me like shit. I had no intentions on doing this but it all got to be too much....and now I am paranoid and it drives me nuts. Luckily I only have two face-to-face classes so I only have to be here from Monday at 2 pm to Wednesday at 3:30 pm, so I don't have to be here much and the journey is worth the time I get to spend up there. While I am actually enjoying the drive (most of the time) I am so ready to not have to make it any more! Only 8 more times, at the very most! I start moving my stuff up this weekend, and cleaning out my room(s), it will be nice to not have to live out of a suitcase anymore!
♥ Sara

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, than you don't deserve my best"
-Marilyn Monroe

(I don't know if there is a quote that could better sum me up right now! =) )

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Absolutely love the quote!! You can do it, you can stop overanalyzing as much. It may never fully go away, but it will lessen the harder you try, and you will be so much happier (if that's even possible). I'm so happy for you, you deserve the best my dear!

Unknown said...

Love the quote, it's my favorite one, I used to have it as my background to myspace.

You rock! That's all.