Change.

For those of you who know me real well, it doesn't come as a surprise that I'm not, or wasn't, change's biggest fan.... In fact I typically avoid change and like things comfortable and familiar. Heck, I stayed in a crappy apartment with terrible management where nothing gets fixed and isn't exactly safe for three years because it was comfortable!

Well yesterday, as some of you know, I had a freak out moment. I realized I graduate in 35 days. I move. I need a job. I start grad school. Ben should be gone to work. I have very few friends up north, none that I am close to anymore. In just over three months EVERYTHING about my life will have changed. (And the first two of those months are gone, I can't believe it has been two months already!!) Before it was just in the plans and slowly happening but all of a sudden life started passing me by and I had and OMG-shit-is-happening moment!

So I did what I do best. Freaked out. Didn't really do anything other than worry, oh and eat ice cream. (I seriously love Ben & Jerry's ice cream, it gets me through anything!) And then I decided that if life is going to change like that on me I'm going to change right along with it. So I chopped my hair off again. Thought about dying it a different color, but remembered what happened last time and decided against it. Then last night I made a list. A list of everything that is changing and why I should worry about it. And then. . . . I burnt it! =)

Today is a new day. The sun is shining. I went shopping. (Retail therapy is the best!) I'm in a t-shirt and warm. My hair is crazy and I don't know how to make it look good. But life is good. I will make it through my classes. I will graduate. I will move in with my parents. (If it doesn't go well I will move into my house....lol.) I will find a job. (It might take a while and it might not be what I want but I will do it.) I will start grad school. And I will finish grad school. Also I WILL take a vacation somewhere this summer. And I will write and start completing things on my bucket list. . . . even though I know it will be an eternal work in progress.

So freak out is over. Sara is back. And ready to kick some ass in life! =)
♥ Sara

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power." - Alan Cohen